It's Like Popping Pills

Dear Blog,

Wow, what a great week. It came unexpectedly n without my awareness. It just slipped through my life without I'm knowing it and this is probably the best week so far here in Arizona. How could u expect this sort of very good things in ur life come into ur life simultaneously. But by the end of it, u realize something which could be very important for ur whole life.

Well, at first, it's just the same week like any other week in U of A. nothing interesting. But, I did realized my English verbally is getting better even though at some points I stopped to think about the words that I wanted to say. But still, it's still getting better though. The big problem for me is regarding my social life here and it's not improving at all. However, particularly on Tuesday, I went for the Geo field trip with just the male students who came for it. I proved to myself that I could hang around with them even though it's not that good but at least I tried.

Wow, and at first, it was really hard for me to use the compass but then, there was this one guy in the class helped me a lot. Thanks to him even though, I still don't really know how to use the compass. I use my intuition all the way to the finishing point. Hmm. On the way back to the van, I realized that I learn how to survive when I'm in a really desperate situation. Huhu. Wow, that is a good point for me think about. You learn how to survive when you need to survive. But the best thing of the day, I got my last week's lab and it's a nerve wrecking experience. Wow, at the end, I got 100. It's a big surprise for me because last week, I got C for the lab (77). Wow. That was so unexpected

The next day, I was going to get my English essay back. The prof. told us that, there are only three of us who really performed for that essay (I mean who got A). And automatically, I told to myself, that is ridiculous. Impossible, u won't be one of the luckiest people in the class. Hell yeah, again the unexpected occur at the most unexpected time. i got A-. That means, I got A for that essay. Wow, I'm one of the three!

That night, I went to the Malaysian Students meeting. As usual, they were late and I was the earliest there. Suddenly, Mary called me from downstairs. Haven't met her for quite a long time and it did felt good to talk to her again. While the meeting is not really successful, so Laura treat us (Husna, Mel and me) at a Thai restaurant. We've had a great time. It felt like u r in Malaysia when you eat a lot and really full and the food is so tasty and delicious while u lepak-lepak after u eat and share things about ur life among each other. It was really great and that Wednesday, I will remember as the best Wednesday ever in my life.

And the next day and all the way till today, I could not stop myself from thinking what the hell happen to me this week? After all of the trouble and the depressions, all of a sudden, good things popped out just like that. That is so scary for me. The things which I'm sure it won't be repeated itself. I hope it will stay forever like this when I can smile and sleep soundly every night.

And today, I realized something really important. This is about the thing I really like which is writing. Hmm, after watching Ugly Betty, I realized that Geology is not really me. Writing is Ikhwan Mahmood. I know I write a lot and I never realize about this. Why? Maybe because of the grades I usually get in KYUEM (which is band 6) kinda hinders me from thinking about the thing I like to do. I don't know but I certainly love the thing in newspaper which is columnist. Who knows one day I could be a popular columnist even though me myself right now does not like to read a column. I just love to write. Read is the second thing.

However, Geology is the thing that I chose, so I need to stick with it no matter what. By the way, I still love Geology but it's not just the thing that u r....(I dont know how to explain this feeling). But I can be a writer and geology at the same time. I guess it's much better and I think, I've made the right choice for my future. I just need to shape it up so it will be better and meaningful. I hope one day, I will do everything that I want to do. (sing on a grand stage, acting in a movie or theater, making movies, directing a film, write a novel, be a columnist, travel around the world and meet someone I really can live with one day. and there are more of them) I will always pray the best for my future and I hope for anyone who read this, u will also try to do what u love to do. Love! Thanks.

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